I’m very excited to share with you a personal diary entry of one of our clients, Jennifer Hickey. Jennifer came to TNT Nutrition back in May 2016 with initial goals to learn what to eat to maintain weight while running and eating foods she enjoys. She wanted to lose 5-7 lbs, and felt that it was just so hard for her to lose weight and she had to watch everything she ate (literally). She had a large list of questionable food allergies and intolerances as well that were affecting her overall health, which included vegetarian staple foods, which didn’t help that she preferred a vegetarian lifestyle! She also shared her past struggles with dieting. She had been dieting since she was 11, was an emotional eater, binge eater, had every food/diet/nutrition opinion/resource known to man and was utterly confused and had no idea what to do. Needless to say, we had quite a few areas to dissect and really figure out, this was not going to be an easy task.
We first tried to address her allergies to help provide her immediate relief from some of her symptoms, but it didn’t take long to see that her restrictive eating and emotional eating tendencies were really hindering our ability to fully address her body’s needs. Hence the mindful eating consulting began. Jennifer was a brave soul in being open and honest about some of her deepest fears, emotions, views on body image, food, I mean, I don’t know what we didn’t talk about over the next few months. I will never forget when Jennifer said, “I can’t believe how much time I’ve wasted obsessing about food and weight my whole life”. Big moment for her. Approximately one year later, Jennifer has really overcome her biggest obstacles surrounding her relationship with food. She is embracing an entirely new world about food, and is investing her energy into her big vibrant life, and not stressing about what she’s going to eat when she’s going camping with her family, or if the scale went up or down a pound, or logging her foods every, single, day. The level of transformation Jennifer went through I feel is too large to wrap up in one sentence.
Through mindful eating consulting, one always learns more about oneself: who they are, what they need, what needs are not being met, to name a few. She mentioned a passion she had was writing, and she toyed with the thought of writing her story to impact others in a positive way about her experiences. I encouraged her to follow this intuition and knew that when she was ready, she’d make the move to do so. And here we are. She started her own private blog for her own wants, I offered her the opportunity to share her story on TNT Nutrition’s blog platform. Jennifer’s in charge of how much and how often she wants to share her story, so as she decides to share them, I’ll be sure send out her blog entries because her story is quite incredible. I hope you all enjoy and can acknowledge the journey and hard work this amazing woman has gone through to get here.
Diary Entry #1: It’s not difficult to see how I got into this mess with food. Following the rules of the diet game to win my very own thin and problem free body, seemed like a reasonable strategy to losing weight. After all, EVERYONE was doing it! I thought, if I just simply learned about human bodies and what they need, then I would learn to how to best nurture and provide for mine. One of the diets had to be the right one. Or at least one of the diets had to work for me! It makes sense. When I wanted to learn how to run faster, I read books on speed training. I followed the rules and saw results. So I guess after three decades of reading and planning and preparing for every diet and health craze I could get my hands on, I assumed I would have figured out how to effectively maintain my weight? Right? I mean all that science? All that math? Well, it’s less than three months until my 40th birthday and I am calling it. GAME OVER. For all the time, effort and trial and error, I should have a doctorate but instead I’m still gaining and losing the same five to ten pounds over and over again. Until now that is. Up until about 3 weeks ago, all of this information had been completely useless to me because I kept failing to do the most important thing when it comes to figuring out how to maintain a healthy weight. I failed to trust and listen to my own body. I failed to ask myself first if any of the diet plans would work for me!I can’t say why I am ready now and I am certainly not under the misconception that I won’t stumble a bit or even crash into a wall going forward, but I’m willing to trust and embrace that wise and battle-tested warrior woman within. I’m finally ready to ask her first. She is all things me. The physical and spiritual, the intellectual, the sexual, the silly, clumsy, gullible, binge eater, the embracer, the manifester and everything in between. She knows it all and has been whispering her dynamic solutions to me for years and I can tell you that none of them were to continue to avoid carbohydrates regardless of how distended my constipated stomach had become. No. Her gentle suggestions are more along the lines of, Breathe. Are you actually hungry? And what do you know, there is some mindful eating literature out there to support her thinking. Now, I’m definitely not denying that knowledge about our bodies and nutritional needs is useless. Far from it. But if you are like me, maybe it’s time to consider that your inner voice is the expert on you. So instead of looking all over the planet for some perfect solution to all of my dietary and weight issues for another three decades, I’m going to start by asking what my inner self things first. And then maybe I’ll consider whether I’ve had enough protein today.
Can you relate to Jennifer? Consider our Mindful Eating Workshops to help renew YOUR relationship with food.